*sparkling saturday*

i could say today is one of the most exhausted day this sem after having a relaxing sem..[i cud say this sem is kinda relaxing,maybe klas smpi tghr je kot,but da clerkship je la yg wat nmpk bz..]

but i was great!

u know why?

today,i could say i did a personal record..
heheh..

pg td,ade match basket btween my team and 2008..
tau x kul bape??
kul 7pg..
so kne bgn kul 5.30..huhu

nk dijadikan cite..
kul 7 lbh sket,baru stat game..

and da best part is..

da 1st time in my life,
i made 3 poin score..

hehehhe

suke nye....

[my boos];+;owh babes,i wish...;+;

best nye
sonok2
even sok nak posst-test saraf
dgn prof moh hasan
huhu
even mataku xmampu membuka pn skg
but
im really2 glad
really2 thank to my boos
my hazirah,and my irah..i juz YM with them
irah is in KL,and in hazirah resident rite now..
i miss them
really
so much
huhu
and tomorrow
they plan to go to klcc
and will meet khasanah after her work
so
dats mean
they will reuni tomorrow
huuhuh
i miss them
but im hepi dat they will meet tomorrow
even im not there
i can feel it
i wish i cud dream about u all tonite
but
pliz dun forget mms me ur pic
upload in facebook
im so thrilled to know which thing in ur pic will be me..
hahahah
nice idea act..
but pliz dun pun cloud as me..
feels like im in heaven..
hhaha

:+:my babes:+:
my hazirah
my irah
my khasanah

selamat bereuni besok
have a great time
i love u all
and i really miss u all
*muah*
hehhe

[ciannye die]

hurm..
baru.pas.call.ibu.and.call.mr.ascaris.
my.mum.and.my.dad.nak.gi.teluk.intan.besok.
anak.buah.sedara.saya.nak.kawen..
so.anas.
wish.u.a.very.happy.pengantin.baru.
semoga.bahagia.ke.anak.cucu..
then.
my.mr.ascaris.
ciannye.kat.die.
dienye.ngageHP.hilang.
hurm.
die.ni.sgtla.menjaga.barang2.die.
so.he.was.so.frustrating.
1st.HP.and.now.
it.was.gone.
jgn.risau.ye.mr.ascaris.
maybe.its.the.time.u.shud.let.it.go.
da.la.skrang.die.sgt.bersungguh.bekerja.
1.week.at.rawang.
i.didnt.asked.what.he.did.
but.
i.juz.wanna.pray.dat.averything.goes.fine.with.his.job.
gambatene!.

andai kau mampu membenci

i.suddenly.had.this.thing.on.my.mind.
suddenly.i.felt.and.i.wish.you.could.hate.me.
for.what.we've.been.through.
for.what.had.happen.before.
people.said.
things.happen.for.a.reason.
i.believe.dat.
i.do.
what.i.had.in.my.minds.
is.what.i.have.been.thinking.in.these.few.days.
you.once.said.to.me.
dat.what.had.happen.now.
between.us.
between.you.and.her.
is.what.we.called.destiny.
i.agree.with.you.
but.then.
i.was.thinking.
yes.it.is.destiny.
for.what.i.have.done.
is.just.destiny.for.you.and.her.
and.about.the.cant-forget-you.
or.
never-forget-you.thing.
i.think.it.is.da.past.that.you.should.let.go.
coz.you.know.the.destiny.
it.is.you.and.her.
i.dunno.if.what.i.thought.was.wrong.
maybe.you.could.answer.me.
owh.i.forgot.
u.cant.
but.
i'm.dying.while.waiting.for.the.time.to.answer.me.
i.just.wish.i.could.forget.what.i.thought.
even.i'm.wrong.
i.cant.make.it.leave.my.mind.

18th MAY

it is 18th may today

sumone had told me never to forget this day

this 18th may

wat so special??

it is a birthday of

MUHAMAD ADAM ZURAIRI BIN MOHD.RAWI

and who is he?

hurm

he is my cousin

act..

dua pupu kot

coz my mum and his dad is cousin

my grandma and his grandma is sister

u know what

i never thought some1 wud describe about me willingly

in his/her blog

but him..

but him had wrote about me

panjang gile die cite

nak tau pe yg die cite

die cite pasal memori kitorg kecik2 dulu

coz kitorg ni uda and dara kat kampung 2

and ade gak yg die cite yg saya xingat

kitorg kamceng gile

tp 2la

bile da masuk highschool

masing2 bawak diri

then semasing da muda remaja

cam da ade segan silu

kalo x dulu

gi mengaji pn siap pegang tangan

hahaah

okey

ni nak add-up sket ape yg die xcite

1. igt lg,tym tu blan pose..and xtau la bape taun kitorg wat cmni.pokoknye,tym bulan pose,tgh sibuk2 duk bagi kad raya,memandangkan die ni belakang umah saya je,so,kitorg tulis kad raya,tulis address,then,kitorg gi masukkan dlm peti surat masing2..
2. pstu,dulu kitorg sll jln2 tym petang..mak die ade basikal..basikal yg leh bawak penumpang kat belakang..yg best nye,aku yg bawak,die duk belakang..tp,yg kayuh,is die..coz aku tukang pegang handle je..heheh
3. then,de sekali 2,kitorg nak gi ngaji..mst lalu umah saya dl..so,die akan siap dl,then die singgah umah saya coz nk gi same2..de sekali tu,wan den watkan jagung rebus..die pn makan la dl b4 gi ngaji..ntah cmne,tgh syok2 mkn,tetibe gigi die tersangkut kat jagung..hahahah...dan dan gigi die leh tercabut..klaka gile..
4. kitorg jarang gaduh..jarang gile..agaknye sekali ni je kot..kat umah die ym tu..gaduh pasal ape xtau la..pastu kitorg pegang buluh ni..die pegang ujung,aku pegang ujung algi satu..pstu aku pukul die,die pukul aku..hahhah
5. pstu,kecik2,tym musim buah,kitorg sll jual buah kat apek2 yg suke beli..so,kitorg gait la buah rambutan..ikat2,then timbang..nyk gak dpt..sekali jual leh dpt rm70..rm60..kayo den dl kocik2..haha
6. pstu,kitorg selalu lepak kat kedai kopi mak godang[die nye makcik]..kitorg kan budak sekola..xde duit sgt..kot2 de lbh duit poket,baru gi kedai 2..de sekali 2,eh byk kali gak,kitorg pegi sane,order megi kari 1,air pepsi 1..makan syer..hahaha..romantik kan..hahahah..lawak but sweet memories..

byk lg kalo nk ikutkn..tp nnt xcukup lak..then,sure korang busan nk bace..

so,here,i would like to take this opportunity,to wish u, a wonderful and meaningful birthday..semoga profesi anda sebagai guru membawa sribu makna dan mengajar lebih byk erti dedikasi dan semangat..

huhu..

happy birthday,abg ayie!!

happy TEACHER'S day!!

it's 16th MAY
it is
TEACHER'S DAY
today

huuhuu
i never forget this day
and i awiz wish my beloved teacher
even i had left school for 5years
hehe
wow!!
5 years
lame nye
seems like last year

tym form 1,
saya masuk choral speaking
our title was Teacher's Day
thanked to miss sabrina and sir ramli for created such a lovely script
for me
dats the best ever script
i dun really remember da whole script
but i will never forget da last part
'happy teacher's day,not only in may,but every single day'
huhu
[act,yg wat saya igt sgt part ni,is sbb tym wish happy teacher's day 2,pttnye sume orang tunduk,then bile nk ckp not only in may,baru naekkan balik kepala,but,
tym tu,saya terangkat pale lbh awal sket dr yg laen,angkat2 je trus pandang sir ramli yg kat depan,
then die da jegilkan mata die..
hahha..
opps!!
im kinda spoiler..
huhu

i have my PN. ASRIAH
she was my bahasa teacher and also my mentor
act,i love her so much
she such a wonderful and lovely teacher
even when we were form for 4 and form 5,
we also wished her mother's day
at school
she such a mother to me
even tym form 3 dgr senior ckp pn. asriah ni mulut die laser sket
sinis ak la
but die still baek hati
kalo die nk pperli 2,
huhu
tahan je la telinga
but
ape yg die ckp,nasehat die
sume nye betul
she was very rational
pikirkan kebajikan student die
hehhe
suke sgt tym bulan pose
kitorg berbuka kat umah die
then de sekali weekend tido umah die
hehhe
xmalu betul

so,
i wud like to dedicate this entry
to PN.ASRIAH,
TO ALL MY JENAN'S BELOVED TEACHER,
TO ALL MY SKUJ'S GREAT TEACHER,
A WONDERFUL TEACHER'S DAY

I JUZ WAN U ALL TO KNOW
U ALL MEANT A LOT TO ME
I NEVER GONE THIS FAR IF IT'S NOT BCOZ OF U ALL
UR PASSION,
UR DEDICATION,
I JUZ CUD PRAY DAT ALLAH WUD GIVE U A SPECIAL PLACE IN HEAVEN

FOR SKUJ'S TEACHER,
YG BENTUK SAYA,
HINGGA SAYA DPT MASUK JENANTHEN
CIKGU2 KAT JENAN YG BYK SUPPORT SAYA
HINGGA SAYA MSUK MATRIX AND
NOW
IM HERE
IN MEDICAL SCHOOL

LOVE U ALL!!

[P/S:xlupe gak kat makcik jb,kat kak yong syaza,kat abg.ayie..]

10th MAY

i love this day
today is our friendship anniversary
6th
4 years to go
*me*
*irah*
*hazirah*
*khasanah*

i love u all
semoga kite jadi bestfriends dunia akhirat
we are not bestfriends
but we are siblings by heart
i always love dat word
haha
even tym sekola de yg panggil kitorg
pembesar-4-lipatan
hahahha

semoga kita sama2 berjaya
masa depan yg cerah
hidup yang bahagia
amin..

MOTHER'S DAY SPECIAL

Mama thank you for who I am
Thank you for all the things I'm not
Forgive me for the words unsaid
For the times
I forgot

Mama remember all my life
You showed me love,You sacrificed
Think of those young and early days
How I've changed
along the way

And I know you believed
And I know you had dreams
And I'm sorry it took all this time to see
That I am where I am because of your truth
I miss you, I miss you

Mama forgive the times you cried
Forgive me for not making right
All of the storms I may have caused
And I've been wrong
Dry your eyes

Mama I hope this makes you smile
I hope you're happy with my life
At peace with every choice I made
How I've changed
Along the way
And I know you believed in all of my dreams
And I owe it all to you, Mama

MY GREATEST MUM OF ALL..
I LOVE YOU,MUM



today,is a very special day of mine..
bcoz today is mother's day and today is my friendship anniversary yg ke-6..
wow!!dat's sound great..
i baked a cake..oppss!
seems i cant baked,
so i just stim..
brownies kukus..
for my beloved mum
and for my lovely besties..

mum..
i awiz hard to express how much i love u..
but,
i hope you can see how much i love u..
and how much i try my best not to menyusahkan u..
even sometimes,
i could tell,
im the one very menyusahkan..
huuhhuhu..
i hope one day i can make you happy,more happy than today..
i hope one day u cant have feel the pain that you've been through..
i dun wanna make promises..
coz im afraid i wud broke ur heart..
but i hope u awiz love me,mum..
bcoz i love u so much..

kenapa saya sudi bermadu

hrum
mesti kontroversi kan entry saya ni..
kaum2 perempuan pun mesti kurang setuju dengan saya
tapi nak wat camne
pemikiran saya memang pelik sikit
and saya just ikut ideologi saya je
heheheh
iye ke??
let's see
hurm
but before 2
saya nak gtau
saya sudi dimadukan maksudnye
maksudnye
saya ni bini 1st la
hehhe
sebab ape?
sebab pokoknye laki 2 jadi milik saya dulu
saya xkan bermadu kalau saya jadi no 2
sebabnye saya xnak disebut perampas
or penyibuk rumahtangga orang
and nape saya bersungguh xkesah dimadukan
walaupun agak mencabar memandangkan profesi saya ialah seorang doktor
walaupn perempuan susah nak berjaya dalam kedua2 nya
which is samada die harus pilih kerjaya atau keluarga
bukanlah maksudnye kalo berdedikasi dlm profesi anda sbg dokter,kelarga anda punah..
bukan camtu..cumenye,agak susah untuk kita unggul sebagai isteri dan ibu seperti great2 mum dat we have like our great mum..
tapi
saya berusaha menjadi isteri yg patuh dan penyayang
ibu yang mithali dan menjaga kebajikan keluarganya
sehingga tidak ada kemungkinan untuk suami saya beristeri dua
heheh
Insya Allah
lagipun
nak tau nape saya sanggup?
hehhe
Insya Allah,
payung emas di akhirat..
hehhehee

zulaika zulaika
ape2 je la

sumenye kerana perempuan...

hurm
rini tengok WOLVERINE
secara xsengaja
sebab xtau lak kat delta de kuar movie tu
so,aimi,nou and me gi la tgk pas lunch..
tgh2 syok tgk cite 2,part yg die baru pas masukkan adamantium dalam badan die,then
tetibe melayang kat fikiran ni
hurm
sume cite yang tang tunjukkan keheroan dan kemachoan
bab2 revenge ni
dasar cite die mesti sebab PEREMPUAN
wolverine:
revenge sebab kononnye bini die kne bunuh
too fast too furious 4:
revenge pn sebab awek die mati
ape lagi ek
pokoknye banyak la
ha..
slumdog milionnaire:
masuk who wants to be a milionnaire pn sebab nak cari awek die..
haih..
pompuan
hiasan dunia
huuhuhu

*settlekan tag2 ckb for me*

my dear darling..sorry i wait for so long to do this..hehhehe...so..
this is for u..

DESCRIBE 10 THINGS ABOUT THE PERSON WHO TAG u:

1. she is che ku bahirah che ku mat,was borned on 24th february 1988,which is i year and 2days younger than me..
2. die ni kipas-susah-mati peterpan..we are,act..and before taht,die ni gak kipas-susah-mati sheila on 7..
3. she loves pink so much...i kan suke biru..dulu kitorg wat geng yg suke biru vs geng suke pink..die,che yam,syifa..sume geng suke pink cam nak mati...
4. die suke lelaki yg jambu...hahhhahahhahha
5. kalo dlm phone,die suke ckp 'adoi'..kadang2 kitorg ckp bende 2 byk kali,sampai nnt kitorg mst tanye,'ang sakit ape ni'..hehhe
6. die ni sebenarnye manja..tp susah gak nak tunjuk...heheeh
7. die seorang yg study hard..huhu...besa nk exam,die mst leh stay up smpi pagi..huhu..
8. die long distance runner..huhu..wakil sekola 2 tuk 1500m..
9. eh,i xckp eh die pemalu?..haha..die pemalu..tp sekang rase nye da xpemalu sgt..kalo ngan yg die kenal,nakal die ni..
10. she is my best friend..sibling by heart...saya sayangkan die sangat..she is one of certain people in this world dat i would do everything for..dear,kangen banget sama kamu..huhu

so,describe pasal saya 2 xyah la eh..hehe..byk sgt da ni describe pasal saya..
ok,we move to anoter tag...

1. Anda rasa anda hot?
sangat..i ade baju yg tulis..HOT STUFF..hahahhahahaha

2. Upload gambar kegemaran anda

3. Kenapa anda suka gambar ini?
coz its meaningful..the ring itself has its meaning..and pic ni nmpk cantik sgt..and paling best,this pic cam jd logo tuk each felicita video..kalo x kat awal video,mst kat part ending..hurm..ring tu act namenye felicita..hehe..*wink*

4. Bila kali terakhir anda makan piza?
last two weeks rasenye..mkn kat galaxy mall..

5. Lagu terakhir yang anda dengar.
cinta ini membunuhku-d masiv..semalm tetibe nk dgr cd die..

6. Apa yang sedang anda buat selain selesaikan tag ini?
lepak atas katil..act,xde wat pape..mmg focus pada blog ni..

7. Selain dari nama anda sendiri, anda suka dipanggil dengan nama apa?

angah..dear[irah awiz called me like this]..act,wat i like most is..zulaika..

8. Tag lagi 6 orang dengan hati yg terbuka tanpa rasa kekesalan. Sila lakukan kalau tak kena denda mandatori.
nou
khasanah
kak yong shaza
gadafi
k.a
asyikin

9. Siapa no 1 kepada anda?
my housemate yang berpipi tembam..hahhaha

10. Bagaimana pulak dengan no 4?
hurm..my mr.ascaris..his finger was in da pic above..hehehe..

11. Kata sesuatu tentang orang no 5.
k.a..member tym kat klas..4taun same klas ngan die..die asyik jd ketua tingkatan..suara sedap..kumpulan nasyid sekola...ramai admire kat die..muka die cam anuar zain..hehhe

12. Bagaimana pulak dengan orang no 3.
my kazen..1st cucu dlm family kitorang,,married..now got 2children..and a teacher..she love her job..

13. Siapakah orang no 2.
khasanah..also sibling by heart..my bestfriend..die plg tua dlm my sibling by heart,but die la yg cam budak2,same dgn hazirah..

14. Bagi pesanan anda untuk orang no 6.

to hot mommah,may u always hot..hahha..u are hot..lol...semoga anda sentiasa hepy di samping org tersayang..huhu..i really wish cud come to ur wedding..hehhe

I AM BACK!!

I AM BACK
i am still zulaika
the same zulaika
i know i cant hold too long in my depression state
bcoz i am zulaika
*happy-go-lucky*
*naughty*
*manje*
*sedikit gedik*
hehehehehe
i thought i would be someone else after this
but i just cant
coz i like the way i am
still complicated
hehhehe

so
here i am
i'm back to my life
i'm back to my business
i'm happy
much much more happy

i juz wanna pray
hope everything will be better
saya xnak mengharapkan yg terbaek
yg sempurna
tapi saya berharap
Allah tunukkan yang terbaik buat saya
walaupn itu bukanlah keputusan yang terbaik

im temporarily shutting down my life

i think this gonna happen one day..
but really xbajet now im gonna through this..
i dun wanna cry..
i wanna fell happy..
but i really cant..
why must u do this 2me?
for a year i feel guilty..
for a year i wish u could forgive me..
truely,i need u in my life..
im glad to have u in my life..
why i juz cant be ur friend..
babe,
saya sayangkan awak
setiap hari saya harap awak maafkan saya..
setiap saat saya berdoa tuk kegembiraan awak..
saya xfaham nape awak kne wat sume ni
u juz have to take care of her..
i know u will be happy..
u are happy..

im shutting down..
too many to erase..
can i keep those memories..
oh god..
how could i forgot sweet memories..

i juz wish
sume ni cepat berlalu..
i thought i can handle this..
i thought i wont cry..
i should be happy actually..

:+:wishes to u if u read this one day:+:
byk2 niat saya,saya rase hanya satu yg mampu..
may on ur graduation day,
u could wear my gift to u..
da lame saya niat,
alhamdulillah
da separuh niat saya tercapai..
tinggal awak je yg perlu menyempurnakan selebihnya..
saya xharapkan pape,
kecuali awak paaki hadiah 2 pada hari awak grads,
dgn org2 tersayang di sekeliling awak..
tuk tzm awak,
saya rasa xsusah da kot nak cari pembonceng..
lots of luv from me..
adios..

dedicated to you,MR.ASCARIS..

dedicated to u..
yeah you..
hurm..

i have mr. ascaris..how da name came out,only us know..huhu..
hurm...
i've known him about 3-4years...
im glad i've met him..
mr.ascaris,u might be surprise i would talk about u here..
but since u challenge me to talk about u,
so,here i am..

act,this entry just wanna wish u a safe journey for tomorrow..
but,it's ok..[alang2 menyeluk pekasam]
i shud write more about u..heheh [jgn marah]

him
a very self-confident person
a very futuristic,had vision and mission
[which i liked most of the character he got]
very egoistic
never trust anybody
very dependent[he wil survive where ever he go,and maybe become a leader]
a good leader..
family-man
crazy about women[hahhahahha]..ok2,nicer word,very interested in women..
money is everything
hard to fall in love..
a great friend,i can say..[which i cant be to him]
sumtym he is very poyo

:+:memories with him...:+:
lots..never forgot even one...
been to his house twice for hari raya..know his family,his little brother is so cute..

:+:wishes for him..:+:
i always pray for his happiness..
i always pray for his success..i know,he willl become a great man one day..
i want him to be happy..
he had so much bad memories and suffer a lot,so i always pray that he always be happy in the future,with people he loves around..
thank you for being part of my life..i learn so much about life from u..maybe u still thought im a spoiled brat,but believe me,im still learning..

:+:wishes for tomorrow..:+:
have a safe journey..
send my regards 'assalamualaikum' to ur mum and sis..
have a great holidays..
may ur dream come true this holiday,which is ur tzm..

[actually,dengki sebenarnye,sebab sume orang da balik umah bercuti slepas habes exam final..huuhuhu..saya jer xbalik2 lagi...lamenye july..july,dun go too far...]