seems like almost 2 weeks i've been stressed out..
signs and symptoms being stressed:
1. sleep late or i cant sleep..
even my eyes were heavy,and my body was exhausted,i just only can sleep after almost 40 minutes after i go to bed..so,for 40 minutes,i tried to relax,and sleep,but,then that's the problem suddenly came up..some people said,before u sleep u can reflect yourself,what u have done today or before..so,when i go to bed,then my synaps start to work so hard..so many things to reflect,and at last, i just feel like i'm not a good person, i have done loads of mistakes and still cant figure out how to correct it all..
2. sleep at class..
huhu..dunno why,but i still cant get through this..
maybe because i cant sleep at night make me sleep at class..
really cant pay well attention..
3. i just eat lunch and dinner..no breakfast..
at class also i dun eat, just bcoz i take that time to sleep..hahah..
i think i need therapist..
i cant think straight lately..
i am mentally ill..
hopefully my body dont get ill..
sometimes need pills to sleep..
sometimes(maybe every night)
i would cry before i sleep..just bcoz the reflection of the day..or past..
sometimes i tried to call her,just to hear her voice so that i would released a little bit,but i always called her at works,made her dun have times to chat..
even she would say dat she will call,i know she wouldn't..
but i dun blame her..
i know she worked hard every day..
even with her bad condition sometimes, i dunno how she still can work as usual..
i am so stressed..
and i hope..
this would end soon..
at least, i still can study..thanks God..
i wish..i know what to do to correct my mistakes..
i wish.. .........................................................................
i wish.. ........................................................................
Blessed is your face Blessed is your name My beloved Blessed is your smile Which makes my soul want to fly My beloved All the nights And all the times That you cared for me But i never realised it And now it’s too late Forgive me
Now i’m alone filled with so much shame For all the years i caused you pain If only i could sleep in your arms again Mother i’m lost without you
You were the sun that brightened my day Now who’s going to wipe my tears away If only i knew what i know today Mother i’m lost without you
Ummahu, ummahu, ya ummi Wa shawqahu ila luqyaki ya ummi Ummuka, ummuka, ummuka ummuka Qawlu rasulika Fi qalbi, fi hulumi Anti ma’i ya ummi Mother... mother... o my mother How i long to see o mother “your mother, your mother, your mother” Is the saying of your prophet In my heart, in my dreams You are always with me mother
Ruhti wa taraktini Ya nura ‘aynayya Ya unsa layli Ruhti wa taraktini Man siwaki yahdhununi Man siwaki yasturuni Man siwaki yahrusuni ‘afwaki ummi Samihini... You went and left me O light of my eyes O comfort of my nights You went and left me Who, other than you, will embrace me? Who, other than you, will cover me? Who, other than you, will guard over me? Your pardon mother, forgive me
kalo saya travel,besa nye naek keta,saya xtau nape kaki saya akan tap tiap kali saya lalu tiang lampu..macam duk mengira jarak or byknye tiang lampu sepanjang jalan
kalo naek keta,saya suke kire no plat keta or moto org..n saya dapati kebayakan nmbor,bile ditambah2,sama dgn 20,or mendekati 20..
bile saya tido sambil on alrm clock,kalau saya terbangun awal dari alarm,saya sure tido balik sampai alarm berbunyi..even 1 minute b4..bagi saya,penat je la xbgn time alarm bunyi sbb da penat2 set..kne la bg die berbakti gak..die akan rase kite menghargai die sbg alarm kalo kite bgn sbb bunyi die..ehhe
bile saya basuh baju,tym bilas,saya suke kira bape byk baju yg saya basuh yg menggunakan haner..sbb nnt saya akan ambik cukup2..xsuke kurangg,xsuke lebih..and kadang2,bile xkire,saya akan ambik haner,pura2 berpikir,then saya ambik ikut instinct..leh kate,most of the time,my prediction was right..hehe