i think i need therapist

seems like almost 2 weeks i've been stressed out..

signs and symptoms being stressed:

1. sleep late or i cant sleep..

even my eyes were heavy,and my body was exhausted,i just only can sleep after almost 40 minutes after i go to bed..so,for 40 minutes,i tried to relax,and sleep,but,then that's the problem suddenly came up..some people said,before u sleep u can reflect yourself,what u have done today or before..so,when i go to bed,then my synaps start to work so hard..so many things to reflect,and at last, i just feel like i'm not a good person, i have done loads of mistakes and still cant figure out how to correct it all..

2. sleep at class..

huhu..dunno why,but i still cant get through this..

maybe because i cant sleep at night make me sleep at class..

really cant pay well attention..

3. i just eat lunch and dinner..no breakfast..

at class also i dun eat, just bcoz i take that time to sleep..hahah..

i think i need therapist..

i cant think straight lately..

i am mentally ill..

hopefully my body dont get ill..

sometimes need pills to sleep..

sometimes(maybe every night)

i would cry before i sleep..just bcoz the reflection of the day..or past..

sometimes i tried to call her,just to hear her voice so that i would released a little bit,but i always called her at works,made her dun have times to chat..

even she would say dat she will call,i know she wouldn't..

but i dun blame her..

i know she worked hard every day..

even with her bad condition sometimes, i dunno how she still can work as usual..

i am so stressed..

and i hope..

this would end soon..

at least, i still can study..thanks God..

i wish..i know what to do to correct my mistakes..

i wish.. .........................................................................

i wish.. ........................................................................

i wish..i do the right thing..

Ya Allah

semoga aku masih mampu...