what if i'm not getting married lak??

hurm...
dat my wedding tale was created on my mind since i was 15,rite..
but dat, long before i know dat my journey lead to medical life..
i really didn't expected to be here today..never..
i did so ambitious being a surgeon [after i berangan2 nak jadi archeologist, lawyer, even architect]..
but da only reason dat i wanna be a surgeon at datn time is becoz im so curious of wat inside my body..hehhehhee..besides, i love sewing..heheh..
but when i get offered doing medicine under mara convertable loan, the 1st thing came to my mind was...owh no, i have to postpone my wedding plan coz i thought im gonna get marry at 23..
really..dat was the 1st thing came out..
bcoz...[i btul2 besyukur dpt medic ni]...i never thought im such an ideal student for medic course..hahahahah..coz really pemalas nk baca buku...all my frens know dat i awiz rilek bile nk exam..even now..huhuh..seyesly, i xreti nk strugle..xreti nk hardwork..maybe i lagi suke study smart..hahha..macam la smart sgt kan..2 la my mum awiz said..angah ni pandai da..cume kalo die rajin sket,mst rezut leh gempak..hahha..coz my rezut everage je kot..ntah la..

ok2..back to the main topic..

remember my sis wed on 18th february 2007...3 days after her wedding..i still remember dalam keta i ngan ibu i gi melaka ke mane ntah..we was having some chat about my bf or wat, then about my sis wed..analysis the pro n contra..hahha..
i dunno why suddenly came from her mouth..angah kalo nak kawen,lagi 5 tahun leh la..
haaaaa..my mum said dat..wat a cool mum is she..hehe
then my mum ckp, angah xleh lambat sgt kawen,[kalo lg 5tahun dats mean im 25 at dat time] or tym angah da D.M (doctor muda), leh gak kalo nk kawen tym tu..
tp plg lmbt 26 or 27..[myb my mum takut i jadi andartu kot]

tp smpi skarang i still samar2 bout my future..cam xde bau2 nk kawen pn de gak ni..kuikuikui..
org sll gak cakap,sape yg duk sebut kawen awal,mst lmbt jd nye,yg duk sebut nk kawen lmbt tu, silap ari bulan, da nk menikah da pn..
hurm..

di suatu mlm i dgn nou beronggeng ke Tunjungan Plaza..kitorg dinner kat McD depan T.P..leh lak kuar cite bout diz..

dat time, i decide wat if till 27 i still not yet marry..
this is my plan..

by the time 27,[tym tu houseman pn da nk abes kot],kalo xde angin bertiup de orang nak masuk minang i, i nak submit borang kat mara[mara again,hehhe]..i nk apply ambil specialist surgeon kat overseas...pe gunenye i jadi doc kalo cita2 i nk jd surgeon tak terpenuhi..huhu..
so, kalo mmg rezeki i, terbang la i ke mane2 tuk wat overseas...
[still xde angin bertiup orang nk masuk minang i]
then i habeskn course i..kalo at that tym pn xleh nk ngurat yg ambik specialist dgn i 2,hurm..mmg xberjodoh la i kan..
so, i balik ke malaysia..
sambung la keje jadi specialist..
kalo de org masuk minang,alhamdulillah..
kalo xde, i would spent my whole life as a surgeon, berbakti kepada sesiapa yg memerlukan jasa ku ini..
disamping, haaaaaa..
meluaskan lagi hajat2 i yg dulu duk berangan sgt..
ni cite kalo da byk duit la..xkn la surgeon pn xbyk duit kn...
insya Allah, selagi de pintu rezeki yg terbuka untukku..
i berangan nk bukak kedai makan..i nk bukak kedai interior design..
i nk bukak kedai tuk wedding ni...
i nak bukak...hurm..emangnye byk sgt angan2 i ni..
hurm..2 je la kot..
plg x, nk bukak kedai mkn..kalo da maju sket, i bukak kedai interior design..tp bukan i la yg masak,bukan i la yg design..i hire la sape2 yg berkebolehan..xpn de sedara mara yg nk cari keje..

xpe la hidup sorang2..janji hidup bahagia..cukup la i tau i sayang sape..n cukupla i tau org yg i sayang tu bahagia..cukup la i tau de gak org yg sayangkan i..

i suke word dalam cite laskar pelangi..
hidup banyakkan memberi..tapi jangan harapkan menerima..[lebih kurang kot ckp cmtu]
tp susah gak nk wat cmtu..i pn stil blaja nk wat cmtu..

papepun..Allah sentiasa tahu pe yg terbaik tuk kita..tak semua yg terbaik yg ade di dunia ni, adalah yg terbaik tuk kita gak..jgn harapkan yg sempurna, kerana ketidaksempurnaan itulah yg mengajar kita menjadi sempurna..