sakit

sesuatu yang ku sangka hilang
rupanya masih ada dalam hatiku
tak kutahu sebenarnya masih banyak tersimpan perasaan itu

dan ku tahan
cuba bertahan
daripada mengungkapkan kembali rasa itu

tapi
terasa dalam kepura-puraan
bila pura-pura bahagia sedangkan hati sakit

jujur
aku sendiri tak mampu membaca isi hatiku
ape yang aku mahu
ape yang aku perlu

lorong hidupku mungkin telah lama salah
siapa dan apa yang membawaku ke lorong ini
aku pun tak pasti

mampukah ku berpatah
atau di depan lorong ini masih ada lorong kecil yang membawa aku ke lorong yang lain
.................
i wish for that

andai derita merinduimu itu bahagia
aku pilih derita

seems likes

seems like this gonna be the end..

i just wanna start new day with sunshine

but seems like

its a rainy day

its a rainy day

and i think im gonna sick

goodbye.my.love

[ciannye die]

hurm..
baru.pas.call.ibu.and.call.mr.ascaris.
my.mum.and.my.dad.nak.gi.teluk.intan.besok.
anak.buah.sedara.saya.nak.kawen..
so.anas.
wish.u.a.very.happy.pengantin.baru.
semoga.bahagia.ke.anak.cucu..
then.
my.mr.ascaris.
ciannye.kat.die.
dienye.ngageHP.hilang.
hurm.
die.ni.sgtla.menjaga.barang2.die.
so.he.was.so.frustrating.
1st.HP.and.now.
it.was.gone.
jgn.risau.ye.mr.ascaris.
maybe.its.the.time.u.shud.let.it.go.
da.la.skrang.die.sgt.bersungguh.bekerja.
1.week.at.rawang.
i.didnt.asked.what.he.did.
but.
i.juz.wanna.pray.dat.averything.goes.fine.with.his.job.
gambatene!.

andai kau mampu membenci

i.suddenly.had.this.thing.on.my.mind.
suddenly.i.felt.and.i.wish.you.could.hate.me.
for.what.we've.been.through.
for.what.had.happen.before.
people.said.
things.happen.for.a.reason.
i.believe.dat.
i.do.
what.i.had.in.my.minds.
is.what.i.have.been.thinking.in.these.few.days.
you.once.said.to.me.
dat.what.had.happen.now.
between.us.
between.you.and.her.
is.what.we.called.destiny.
i.agree.with.you.
but.then.
i.was.thinking.
yes.it.is.destiny.
for.what.i.have.done.
is.just.destiny.for.you.and.her.
and.about.the.cant-forget-you.
or.
never-forget-you.thing.
i.think.it.is.da.past.that.you.should.let.go.
coz.you.know.the.destiny.
it.is.you.and.her.
i.dunno.if.what.i.thought.was.wrong.
maybe.you.could.answer.me.
owh.i.forgot.
u.cant.
but.
i'm.dying.while.waiting.for.the.time.to.answer.me.
i.just.wish.i.could.forget.what.i.thought.
even.i'm.wrong.
i.cant.make.it.leave.my.mind.

dedicated to you,MR.ASCARIS..

dedicated to u..
yeah you..
hurm..

i have mr. ascaris..how da name came out,only us know..huhu..
hurm...
i've known him about 3-4years...
im glad i've met him..
mr.ascaris,u might be surprise i would talk about u here..
but since u challenge me to talk about u,
so,here i am..

act,this entry just wanna wish u a safe journey for tomorrow..
but,it's ok..[alang2 menyeluk pekasam]
i shud write more about u..heheh [jgn marah]

him
a very self-confident person
a very futuristic,had vision and mission
[which i liked most of the character he got]
very egoistic
never trust anybody
very dependent[he wil survive where ever he go,and maybe become a leader]
a good leader..
family-man
crazy about women[hahhahahha]..ok2,nicer word,very interested in women..
money is everything
hard to fall in love..
a great friend,i can say..[which i cant be to him]
sumtym he is very poyo

:+:memories with him...:+:
lots..never forgot even one...
been to his house twice for hari raya..know his family,his little brother is so cute..

:+:wishes for him..:+:
i always pray for his happiness..
i always pray for his success..i know,he willl become a great man one day..
i want him to be happy..
he had so much bad memories and suffer a lot,so i always pray that he always be happy in the future,with people he loves around..
thank you for being part of my life..i learn so much about life from u..maybe u still thought im a spoiled brat,but believe me,im still learning..

:+:wishes for tomorrow..:+:
have a safe journey..
send my regards 'assalamualaikum' to ur mum and sis..
have a great holidays..
may ur dream come true this holiday,which is ur tzm..

[actually,dengki sebenarnye,sebab sume orang da balik umah bercuti slepas habes exam final..huuhuhu..saya jer xbalik2 lagi...lamenye july..july,dun go too far...]